What is Bairaag? When I am listening to Keertan I start to cry and I can’t control myself. I don’t know what to make of it.
Bairaag is something that comes naturally and is uncontrollable. Bairaag is the state when one cannot live without the guru even for one second. You should consider reading the life of the Gurus, Guru Angad Dev Jee, this is true Bairaag.
One is extremely fortunate to have such feelings.
Gurbani says:
ਰੰਗਿ ਹਸਹਿ ਰੰਗਿ ਰੋਵਹਿ ਚà©à¨ª à¨à©€ ਕਰਿ ਜਾਹਿ ॥
ਪਰਵਾਹ ਨਾਹੀ ਕਿਸੈ ਕੇਰੀ ਬਾà¨à© ਸਚੇ ਨਾਹ ॥
“In the Lord’s Love, they laugh, and in the Lord’s Love, they weep, and also keep silent. They do not care for anything else, except their True Husband Lord.”
(SGGS – Ang 473)
Don’t be bothered about any of this – focus purely and honestly on Naam.
One thing one must do is keep this Gupt (secretive) as it will stop happening if other people start praising you. Bhai Sahib Bhai Randheer Singh, whilst doing Keertan used to spread his hazooreeaa (long white scarf Gursikhs wear around their neck) out and put it over his Dastaar like a Chunnee, he used to do this because he used to feel Bairaag and his Chera (Face) had a certain laalee (glow) on it. He did this out of his Nimartaa – humbleness.